Inner Strength

This post isn't so much related to the title as you'd expect.

Sometimes you wonder if you're ever going to find the right girl. I talk and think about it quite a bit. Especially because I've been at that point. When I had the right girl.

I know how I blew it. I pushed her away because I wasn't ready.

Med school? Am I gojng to do it? If I don't did first, yes.

American Ninja Warrior

Technically this post is still from the same "day" (period of being awake), but I'll post on the 17th anyway.

I really want to compete on the American Ninja Warrior. That would be amazing.

Time to train like I'm going to do one.

Maybe do the Big 8 workout, and do other kinda of training like free running the other days? Obviously gonna get rock climbing in there as well.

Unsuccessful

Well. I had plans to do a bunch of things this morning, but I didn't do most of them. Because I wanted to sleep. That was the excuse anyway.

I need to stop working 36 hour shifts. This kind of thing is suicide. I don't get to workout or any of my usual stuff because of them.

Debt

I have a significant amount of debt that's getting in my way in regards to school.

It seems like the best option at this point is to do my best to pay it off. Obviously.

In order to do this, I'll need to focus on spending less, being careful with my money, and paying the cards down one at a time. I've already paid down two, and do to my pay boost, I should be able to eliminate the other two over the next six months. I'll make up a budget and payoff schedule sometime this week.

Accountability

In furtherance of the original goals of this blog. That I further myself to the fullest extent possible, alternatively to wallowing in the experience devoid vacuum that I currently exist in, I will commit myself to one post a day. Outlining what I did to further my cause, intellectually, physically, emotionally, etc. First I'm going to start with a list of things that can be done to improve/modify any of my current (and in the future, former) behaviors. This list will expand and evolve over time. As I work on the list, I'll add a link/list on the right side of the page that will highlight what I've done, and what I am working on in these regards. Possibly with a level of some sort to showcase the degree that I've learned said habit. Habits are important, and I will strive to engrave these habits into my body, so that I continue to do them when these current times are past. Although I will definitely need to learn these to the extent that I continue contemplation, experimentation, and improvement throughout my entire life. Hopefully to the extent that I can gift this knowledge onto others to some extent, without badgering or preaching. Until Tomorrow.

July 12

I keep thinking that today is the 14th. I am not entirely sure why.

Reflection at some point - I need to start reflecting at the end of every day. Today is the start, so I won't reflect at this point.

Further refined goals:

I can't figure out whether I want to choose software development over exercise science over medical school.

So, for now, I'm going to pursue all three. Actively.

The plan follows thusly:

Read a few accelerated reading/learning books. Work less. Study sciences, math, and computer science(programming languages). 

Study medical sciences at this time as well, if you don't understand a concept, look it up, research it, and then it'll be easier to understand when you read the actual science involved.

I'm going to see if this works. The idea is simple, yet somewhat radical. But hey, it's a new age (it always is), so we'll see if this works.

Peace.

Preliminary schedule will be here for now, until I add it into google and link the schedule here.

Wednesday:

AM: check Nadya Andreeva video and do the weird intestine thing to help GI tract, study during breakfast.

Workout, and then study.

The remainder is tentative for now.